I Have Found That I Am Bipolar


We were talking the morning after a good workout and walking our cool down lap when Brian says “I have found that I am bipolar”. He was thinking about the verses in Romans 7 he read earlier that day.

It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge. I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question? (Romans 7:21-24 MSG)

It is great to hear the explanation of a familiar verse from someone else. I could identify with him immediately. “Yes that’s right that is exactly what it is.” There is a struggle inside of us that seems to draw us away from God and doing the good that we know He wants us to do. Sin has a strong draw on us and then the battle ensues; at the same time there is a counter force that is there to meet it. It is “…the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus”.

There is a struggle that will fill your heart. You will feel like the inside of you is a battle zone. This is truly a spiritual struggle.

You have to stop and take inventory when this is going on inside of you. Knowing that you are dealing with this battle and that others have the same struggle helps you to stand. You are not alone. Identifying it is part of defeating it, other wise you are in the dark about what is hitting you.

This feeling of being bipolar spiritually is something that we will all deal with for the rest of our lives. There will be some things that we will find victory in, however the draw might still be there. Some days you are walking in the spirit and feel a strong love for God and you know that you have conquered that certain part in your life where you were weak.

Then that changes in a moment and you start having unclean thoughts and down the gutter your mind goes. This can be very discouraging to set you mind on the good things of the Christian life and then to find your self drawn way from it by a force that is in you. When you are a young Christian this can be disheartening.

The good news is that this is not the end of the story. Where you find the strength to continue is in Christ. Let Him be the strongman in your life.

The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different. (Romans 7:25 MSG)

Jesus is the one that has defeated the power of sin in your life you are no longer a slave to sin you are set free. If you are in Christ then you are not held guilty; if you give it over to the Spirit and let him take control of your mind, thoughts and emotions. It is amazing how that transforms your life.

So you lose a battle on occasion, we know who wins this war. It is done.

When you allow His Spirit that is in you to take over then you find the strength to defeat the power of sin that polarized you.

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